ANGER, FRUSTRATION, PARANOIA, DEPRESSION, BETRAYED, STUPID.
IT GOES DOWN THE LINE.
GOD IS THIS WHAT YOU HAVE PLANNED
FOR ME? MY KIDS?
I'M A SINGLE MOTHER OF TWO. WHAT WILL
THEY THINK OF ME? THEY DESERVE SO
MUCH BETTER.
EVERYTIME I MAKE THREE STEPS FORWARD,
I TAKE THREE BACK.
I'M 22 AND I HAVE NOT BEGUN TO LIVE
MY LIFE.
I CANNOT CONTINUE TO DEPEND ON
OTHERS. THATS MY MISTAKE.
MY HEART HURTS. MY BODY ACHES
NONSTOP. MY HEAD HURTS. I'M LOSING
MY SOUL.
WHEN I CRY IT RELEASES SOME OF MY
STRESS, BUT NOT TODAY. PUTTING MY
WORDS ON PAPER TODAY WAS WHAT I
THOUGHT WOULD WORK. IT HASN'T.
IF I HAD MY WAY HONESTLY,
I WOULD HAVE FINISHED HIGH SCHOOL.
I PROBABLY WOULD BE FINISHING UP COLLEGE
BY NOW.
GOD PLEASE SHOW ME THE RIGHT WAY
TO GO. CAUSE I CAN'T DO IT ALONE.
PLEASE.
I KNOW I DON'T TALK TO YOU LIKE I
SHOULD. I ONLY COME TO YOU WHEN I
NEED SOMTHING. THATS NOT RIGHT. I'M
HONESTLY GONNA WORK ON THAT. I
PROMISE...
TO BE CONTINUED....................................
SHANA P.
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